"KOPFWEH" Had a headache, made an exhibition - how to not be a victim of your own thoughts

From feeling trapped to complete freedom - This is how I learned that I am not a victim of my own thoughts.

Painting has been my save space and my spiritual date as long as I can remember. But everything changed with my first solo exhibition in 2020, when I was suddenly confronted with a mindset that shocked me to the core.

This was the birth of the Imperator World.

Back then I had wonderful ideas in mind, though they have been so hard to follow through because my brain would constantly tell me that I should stop.

“It is not safe to get your art out there. You will be judged and you will take up too much space.”

Being the center of attention and make people come to see my art was not a fun ride. My nervous system went into full alert mode. Each painting felt like a battle, like a part of me was dying every time I touched the canvas. There was so much resistance. And this was weird to me, haven’t I drawn all my life and hadn’t it always brought me joy and safety? I knew this couldn’t be normal, there had to be an easier way.

So I went down the path observing my brain why it is doing that to me.

My first realisation was this:

It wasn’t my body that was the problem. My body felt fine and was totally capable to do the job. It was only the brain who apparently had the urge to make trouble. This brought some clarity into my behaviour as with certainty I was not physically damaged at all.

This has then manifested into my art as my solution back then was to basically cut off the brain. I started to simply ignore the daily nightmares in the upper floor. This was my breakthrough, the realisation that I am not a victim of my thoughts.

This is to you, my wonderful reader. Remember that whatever difficulties you are faced with, it is only an illusion and can be shifted to a better one.

The paintings I created back then are a portrait of this sensation in the human experience and brought into life for support and grounding. The exhibition was sold out though I kept one single painting for my own personal transformation as I needed some grounding for myself as well :D

I am currently preparing this year’s exhibition, the vernissage will be on the 12th September 2025 in BORDEAUX! Follow and stay tuned for insights and invites to grab an original piece that speaks to your path.